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[Jun. 11th, 2004|03:21 pm] |
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I BOUGHT A HARMONICA!!!!! |
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| Finally! A photo adventure! |
[Jun. 9th, 2004|04:16 pm] |
Basically, graduation was the best thing to have ever happened to me. I didn't realize how much high school sucked until it sunk in that I would never EVER have to deal with it again. Granted, I've always known high school is awful, and I didn't really have a lot of fun. But starting about a week or two before school ended, this sort of comradery emerged that had never before existed at high school, and all the seniors were one big mass of people. Beach days kicked ass. We had several of them. Since there is no more school, I plan to have many more of them.
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| In the beginning was the word. Or the light. Or Keith Richards. Or something. |
[Jun. 7th, 2004|05:01 pm] |
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I stole this survey from Neda. I don't think I've ever posted one of these survey things from it. So here it is, the Generic Teenager Stereotype survey:
Do you drink alcohol?: when i don’t have to pay for it...
Do you party a lot? not really.
Do you use drugs for recreational purposes?: yes.
How often do you use the word like in an average hour?: crap. waaaay too much. i need to lose that habit before i go to seattle.
Do you skip classes? How often?: i skip class when i have big tests/assignments that i am completley not prepared for. my school used to give me 5 absences per class per semester so i would usually try to use those though; you know, to take a “personal day.”
Do you have casual sex? Protected?: sort of.
Do you steal?: not habitually.
Do you wear inappropriate clothing?: i’ve got a couple shirts my mom and sister will yell at me for. but everyone else thinks they’re cute....
Do you drool over celebrities?: yeah, the dead ones though.
Do you watch a lot of TV?: only simpsons and that 70s show.
Do you ever watch the News?: i can’t stand that shit. especially the news anchors with their shit-eating smiles and over-hairsprayed hair.
Do you even care about world issues?: yeah i guess so, but i know they don’t REALLY matter.... i’m more AWARE of them, and then i’m like, “damn that sucks” and i go smoke pot.
Do you read books often?: not as much as i want to.
Are you failing a lot of your classes?: HAIIIL NO BITCHES. damn i graduated maxima cum laude. whatever that means. some latin bullshit.
Do you spend most of your time with your friends?: i wish.
Do you smoke cigarettes?: yep.
Do you hang out a lot in malls, or at Seven Elevens?: both of those places smell funny.
Do you often find yourself with a crush on someone?: if by crush you mean OH GOD I WANT TO JUMP ON THEM RIGHT NOW DAMMIT ASDKFHAL;DISFHAOSIDFHA, then yes. if by crush you mean “like omg he is sooooooo cute” then no.
Do you curse a lot?: yeah.
Are you desperate to fit in?: no; usually i find that the more i “fit in” the more shallow i’ve become, and i stop paying attention to my real priorities and then i get bored blah blah blah. so i just AM. if that’s fitting in, whatever.
Are you intelligent?: i’m smarter than your average bear.....
The Goth Stereotype
Black lipstick?: nope
Black eyeliner?: dammit people you can’t wear black eyeliner when you have blue eyes and blonde eyelashes!
black eyeshadow?: again....
Black trenchcoat?: no mine is green and woolly.
Black boots?: yes.
Black fishnets?: only if i’m wearing my corset. ;-)
Black nail polish?: not since freshman/sophomore year.
Cigarettes?: yummmm
Heavy metal music?: if i’m in the right mood. generally i’m not though.
Marilyn Manson?: this guy knows what’s up. and he makes pretty good music.
Kittie?: no thanks.
Cradle of Filth?: i don’t even think i’ve given them enough of a chance to listen to a song in its entirety.
Constant frown and perpetual angst?: hhhhhmmmmmm. when i’m alone at night. or stuck in my house. or alone, stuck in my house, when it is also nighttime.
Are you an intellectual?: sure.
An atheist?: no.
Horrible home life?: better than a lot of people’s but it still sucks a lot.
Hopelessly depressed?: probably, but there’s no way they’re putting me back on prozac again. my theory is that there are no human problems that can’t be solved (or forgotten about) if you just sit down and relax for ten minutes and smoke something.
Suffering with suicidal idealations?: no.
Self-mutilation?: i used to, occasionally.
The Punk Stereotype
Plaid?: not really, except yesterday i found this really cute plaid skirt i’m thinking about buying.
Big black boots?: yes
Mohawk?: no
Excessive piercings? [Especially facial]: no. but there’s a scar on my belly button from an unsuccessful self-piercing from 3 years ago. (neda can vouch for me!)
Loud, confident and opinionated?: i was loud until i went to europe and realized how much i detest how loud americans are, so now i’m not really that loud, but i have loud CAPABILITIES. and i’m not very confident with anything except jewelry making, blowjobs, and writing shit.
wild hair colors?: no.
NOFX?: no.
Rancid?: maybe, if someone else wants to hear them.
Well versed on political scandals and outrages?: more than my “peer group,” who are fucking idiots.
The Jock Stereotype
What's your IQ?: i’m too impatient to sit long enough to take those tests.
Do you watch a lot of sports?: no.
Play a lot of sports?: is sex a sport? what about running after the two-year-old that i babysit for? they BURN CALORIES maybe... i dunno.
Talk a lot about sports?: no.
Do you do anything, really, but think about sports?: i don’t do anything.
Are you arrogant?: probably.
Are you a male or female whore?: probably.
Are you homophobic?: nope.
Do you tease other people a lot because you want to seem confident?: naaahhh.
Boobs = fun
Parties = fun, but not as fun as boobs.
Dropping out of high school and flipping burgers = whatever
This Or That
Originality or Acceptance?: originality
Independence or Companionship?: shit. i’d probably die if i only had one. i’ve never gotten to experience TRUE independence yet though, so i don’t really know. but i know that i’d probably get lonely really fast if i was ever totally self-sufficient. but i also know that i’d feel really trapped, suffocated, and tethered if i was always WITH someone.
Stability or Freedom?: freedom.
Personal or Interpersonal?: interpersonal. sometimes i’m too “interpersonal” for my own good though. shit.
Introvert or Extrovert?: extrovert.
Popularity or Isolation?: popularity, if it was from people that are chill and fun and have active minds or play music or drink coffee or laugh all night long or whatever. i wouldn’t want to be popular among middle schoolers or something.
Unique or Loved?: loved.
Understood or Individual?: individual. as cliche as the NOBODY UNDERSTANDS ME thing is for a person of my age and maturity level.... i think it will hold true. because i don’t even understand me sometimes. it’s more of just all this abstract overload shit that goes everywhere, which is probably why an effort related to seeking to be understood will always be in vain.
You or Them?: what about US?
Boyfriend/girlfriend: damn i don’t even know anymore.
Other?
Have you ever been in love: yes
Ever really cared for someone in that way: i hope so.
Ever had sex: yes.
How many hearts have you broken: probably four. i hope there weren’t more than that.
How many people broke your heart: i’m not sure that my heart’s ever been BROKE..... more just like it’s always kinda been weak and it’s never healed so if it gets broken i’d probably not notice.
So what's your significant other like: fucking amazing.
Do you go more by looks or personality: the looks entice and the personality makes/breaks.
Ever kiss a friend: mmmmhm.
Are you still friends: yeah, but we would be more that had she not had the possessive boyfriend.
Do you smoke: yes
weed: yes
Prefer beer or liquor: actually, i prefer wine. if it’s red wine.
WOULD YOU EVER
bungee jump: yes
Skydive: yes
Swim with dolphins: i wouldn’t ever leave them!
scuba dive: yes
Go rock climbing: i have
Change your religion: there ain’t nothin to change to or from, so.... no?
Turn your back on your friends for personal gain: shit i hope not.
Steal a friend's boyfriend/girlfriend: i’d really like to avoid that.
Lie to the police: swerving? yeah i’ve been meaning to get my tires rotated for a while.... you know the steering wheel keeps pulling.... license? registration? fuck.
Run from the police: naaaaaw, you only run if you want to look guilty.
Walk up to a total stranger and kiss them: MMMMhm.
HAVE YOU EVER
Flashed someone: yes. but it was on halloween when i was 14 so there wasn’t much to flash.
Told the person you liked how you felt: yeah.
Gotten really REALLY wasted: not really. i’ve thrown up and shit, but it’s the kind where you feel better afterward, and prevent yourself from passing out.
Skateboarded: yeah.
Skinny dipped: i did today
Stolen anything from a store: i have.... not anything that recently though.
Kissed someone of the same sex: yes
Been to a concert: yup
Been to another country: yes..... and holy shit, do i miss it. america is no place to be living in.
Talked back to an adult: does anyone ever put no for this? unless you’re some kind of parentless hermit living in a cave with salamanders i don’t see how you couldn’t.
Given money to some homeless person: yes. precisely so they could buy a 40. but then he smoked me out afterward.
Tried to kill yourself: no.
Cried to get out of trouble: yes.
Kissed a friend's brother/sister: yes but we weren’t friends then.... first i knew the brother, then i knew his sibling whom i became friends with LATER..... so i guess that doesn’t really count, though it’s still slightly awkward.
THE LAST THING
You ate: carrots from our garden. which were damn good.
You drank: water
The last place you went: photo drive-in
Last thing you bought: photos. but you don’t really BUY those, you just PAY FOR them. the last thing i BOUGHT was a pack of cigarettes.
Last person you saw: my mom, who is in the same room.
Last person you hugged: molly
Last song you heard: something that’s playing right now off this european folk music compilation, i think it’s from serbia.
YES OR NO
Are you straight: no
Are you short: it depends how tall you are
Do you own a hot pink shirt: no
Do you like Marilyn Manson: ehhhh
Did you ever touch someone else's no-no spot: since when is it called a no-no spot?
Do you shop at Hot Topic: no
Do you remember your dreams: occasionally. and when i do it’s RAD.
Can people read you like a book: i really hope i’m not that simple.
Do you talk alot: yes.
Are you afraid of clowns: no, clowns are cool.
Can you drive: yes.
Are you an only child: no. |
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| Christ Almighty... |
[May. 17th, 2004|01:49 pm] |
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[May. 16th, 2004|04:36 pm] |
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Alright so this journal is BACK IN ACTION! Although I'm not that excited about it really. I got some prom night pictures developed and that's probably the only real justification for undeleting this thing. Because I like pictures. ( And I hope you do, too )
All in all, prom was pretty cool. Good food, tolerable music, fun people, and wonderful after-activities. And everyone (seriously, EVERYONE) looked positively gorgeous. I'm glad I found a date and did the whole participating-in-school-social-function thing, because I wouldn't want to be 45 and look back and be all full of regret that I didn't go to senior prom, blah blah blah. But I'll probably die long before then, and never reach that stage where the combination of age and bitterness result in the kind of life that grows increasingly miserable as you inch your way toward inevitable death. Fuck that; I really don't need to live like that, nor do I need to live that long. Ten more years should do it. |
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[May. 6th, 2004|10:43 pm] |
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I feel like there is a very small hair or piece of lint that is stuck to my face. Somewhere around my upper cheek and eye area. Maybe it's just a stray head hair... those do tend to get all over the place. I bet if I saved all the hair I shed everwhere, and all the hair that collects in the hairbrush and shower drain, and all that hair that is stuck to the seats in my car or my bedsheets or the backs of my jacket, I could knit a sweater. A sweater of human hair. That would be so fucking gross. Especially if it included shower drain hair. Although I thought it was hot when in Pirates of the Carribean, Johnny Depp said he roped the turtles with rope made from human hair-- and his BACK HAIR at that. I don't care that he made up that story, that was awesome.
I love taking tests at thespark.com. They are fun. Except now I feel dirty. Even though I just showered.
That's a nice little self-esteem booster. Apparantly, this makes me 91% sluttier than everyone else who has taken this test. Of course, I remember taking these tests in middle school, when I hadn't done ANYTHING yet. So maybe the overall population statistics are different? SARAH HELP ME OUT HERE, LET'S MAKE AN SRS!!!!!!!! (Look it's a math joke!)
Ewwwww a little gnat just flew across the computer screen, and I smushed it, and now it is stuck on my thumb. Well not anymore, now it's somewhere on the keyboard since I'm typing. I'll just have to check my thumb for tiny insect bits before I start biting my nails or rubbing my eyes or anything like that. Yuck.
I love chocolate. I am going to marry a chocolate-maker. Noel should learn how to make chocolate. Except chocolate makes people happy and good-feeling and sometimes horny, so I highly doubt that chocolate-making is part of any training he'll be receiving in the army.
God am I bored. |
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[May. 5th, 2004|07:32 pm] |
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Wow, I feel really stupid now. |
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| If someone who knows how to play this song is looking for a singer... just hand me a bottle. |
[Apr. 30th, 2004|06:23 pm] |
Some glad morning when this life is over, I'll fly away.
To a home on God's celestial shore, I'll fly away.
I'll fly away, O Glory, I'll fly away in the morning.
When I die Hallelujah, bye and bye, I'll fly away.
When the shadows of this life have flown, I'll fly away.
Like a bird thrown, driven by the storm, I'll fly away.
I'll fly away, O Glory, I'll fly away in the morning.
When I die Hallelujah, bye and bye, I'll fly away.
Just a few more weary days and then, I'll fly away.
To a land where joy shall never end, I'll fly away.
I'll fly away, O Glory, I'll fly away in the morning.
When I die Hallelujah, bye and bye, I'll fly away. |
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